cookie face-off

pumpkin oatmeal vs. pfeffernusse:

it's a tie! i think the pumpkin would have won just because i love anything pumpkin-flavored, but it didn't come through enough. it also had raisins and walnuts, so they definitely complicated things. the pfeffernusse is a traditional german holiday cookie that's kind of gingersnap meets mexican wedding cake meets black licorice. i'd never made them before, but i took it to a cookie-baking swap party, and they were pretty good. i got a TON of cookies to take back - i would go into a diabetic coma if i tried to eat all those myself. the hostess of this party had fresh, mulled apple cider, and it was delicious.

last night, i went to a potluck. i made sweet potato-black bean enchiladas, which, of course, were a hit. i forgot to take a picture, though. we played some improvisation games afterward, which was hard for me, but i think i did a pretty good job. there is an improv class my friend attends that i'm thinking about. it seems like it would help me with my fear of people. i doubt it will do anything to alleviate my fear of coleslaw, though.

friday night, i went to a "punk rock winter formal" with m:

sorry, this was the punkiest i could look. my pink-hair days are long gone.

the vandals (my favorite) were the featured band at this event, but they played mostly songs off their xmas album. they're still funny, but i wanted to hear more "secular" selections.

so i've been busy since c has been in missouri.

i had my first colonic wednesday. sure, it's a bit uncomfortable and weird, but you feel like a million bucks afterward. really. i felt like i had lost twenty pounds and was walking on air. i felt like i was all up in the ether, or something. i'm getting another. i might even get a series.

i tried to juice fast last week but screwed up every night by eating dinner. something about the sun going down made me need food even after not being too hungry all day. i don't think i was drinking enough juice, honestly. i am still juicing practically every night before bed. i am going to try again after the holidays. c and i were trying to juice some grapefruits, but we didn't know that the peel is toxic for some people. so we were juicing the whole thing (peel included) like we do with lemons, and we felt soooooo sick afterward! i made the mistake of doing it twice just in case the grapefruits we tried had gone bad or something! major nausea. i threw out all the rest of the grapefruits, thinking that maybe we got a bad batch. but then i did an internet search and learned that the rind is toxic. oops.

my sleep is better some nights, the same old on others. i feel like it is getting better overall and didn't expect 100-percent improvement overnight. everyone is telling me to eat meat since i was sleeping at least on my candida diet, but i don't want to! i already tried it and hated it. yes, i slept on that diet, but it could have been the entire lack of sugar or just the lack of things that gave me any energy. i feel it would compromise all the work i do trying to track my food intake and balance my diet optimally because optimal, to me, does not mean any kind of animal products. i know i am getting all the vitamins, minerals, and macronutrients i am supposed to be getting, so i am not convinced that eating meat is going to supply me with anything i'm not already getting to help me sleep. plus there are plenty of vegetarians who don't have insomnia and insomniacs who aren't vegetarians.
all that being said, c is worried about me and really wants me to try it, so i think i will for him. i will try eating an egg tonight. i don't want to do it every day; maybe i could get away with once a month or every couple of weeks? i suppose i would start off strong and decrease it over time if i want. hopefully this will be better as i am not removing any food i was eating, just adding a protein. another thing i just thought of is i mostly stopped eating tofu when this started, so maybe i should eat some tempeh (which is healthier than tofu since it's fermented, apparently). tonight, though, i will see if i can stomach an egg - the thought nauseates me. but i'd rather eat an egg or a piece of fish than drink a glass of milk.

i'm going back to indiana tuesday.


some new developments

i am the potluck queen as well as the best recipe-follower i know. not to be conceited or anything. but every time i go to a potluck, everyone agrees my stuff is the best, whether it is a side dish, entree, or dessert. and all i have to do is find a recipe that looks good, buy and assemble the ingredients, and follow the instructions! it's really that easy! i made pumpkin pie brownies for the holiday party at the aikido dojo, and they were just gobbled up. they looked approximately like this:

taken from vegancupcakes.wordpress.com because i didn't get a chance to take my own and it would have looked worse anyway. the recipe is there as well.

i sent my folding bike back, and it cost me over $100 in shipping charges. who knew? and i outfitted my flea market bike with a higher seat, so that's wonderful. now i should be able to ride it without horrible leg cramping.

i went to a doctor who wanted to diagnose me on every symptom individually. when i say i'm stuffed up? "you have allergies. here's some nose spray." when i say i'm gassy? "you have irritable bowel. here's some vitamin b5." when i say i've got muscle pain and fatigue all the time regardless if i've exercised recently? "you have fibromyalgia." etc. etc. irritable bowel often accompanies fibromyalgia, and after looking up these things, it all seems to fit together. i go back on wednesday to see how i'm reacting to all the new medications. and all i went in there for was more sleeping pills! lexapro is supposed to start helping me sleep, but if it doesn't, i'll probably be able to get some more ambien or some lunesta or something out of her.
the doctor also recommended i start using a neti pot for my congestion. i have been using it for two days but feel more congested. maybe it takes a while to wash all that stuff out.

i got my juicer (thanks, mom and dad!) and have been making juice every night since i got it. today i embarked on a juice fast in which i consume nothing but juice and water, so we'll see how long i can do it. it's supposed to make you feel great, which is just what i need. if you juice enough things, you still get plenty of calories and all the nutrients but the fiber. the idea is to stop shoving more matter into your colon and give it a chance to clean the old stuff out (sorry if that's gross). to help it along, i'm getting a colonic on wednesday, which is also supposed to make you feel good. so by the end of the week, i should be feeling full of energy and pretty darn good! i hope it works since not much else has seemed to so far.

i set up the christmas tree:

we had the company holiday party at la mar cebicheria peruana, and it was actually a good restaurant choice they made. they seem to pick gross places a lot, but they like them, so maybe it's just me. but this place was without a doubt delicious. i had a yummy salad, a tamale appetizer, sweet potato chips and plantain chips AND regular potato chips with several dips, some sweet potato/pumpkin fritters for dessert, and some tasty wine. corey would love it, partly because their specialty is raw fish.


just a short update

i made this coconut chocolate kream pie:

i cannot figure out for the life of me why this picture is turned this way, but it was really delicious. it had a chocolate layer underneath the coconut layer. i hacked open three coconuts myself to make this pie. here's the only method that works for me: i hammer a screwdriver into several places on the top of the baby coconut, and then i drain away the water (which is a really yummy and refreshing drink on its own). then i set it on the counter, take a cleaver, and hack away at it (aiming for the same spot) over and over until it's cracked enough that i can pry it apart with my hands. then you scoop out the white with a spoon and try to keep shell splinters out of the deliciousness. it is difficult and time-consuming, but i think it is worth it to enjoy fresh coconut!
we rearranged the bedroom.
sadie has been unusually affectionate since we got back from santa cruz. i wonder if i'll find some poop behind the couch or something later this week.
i decided i'm probably not going to send holiday cards until i stop appearing on my parents' (will that ever happen?). plus i'd probably want to send the ones where you have a holiday-themed family photo or write a lengthy, gushing letter, and i don't know if i could talk corey and sadie into appearing.
we went on a bike ride last weekend, and it totally wore me out. part of it was because it was super-hard to pedal my bike since the seat post is too short to adjust to be high enough for me.
i have been really exhausted this week (not sleeping again), so i didn't get to do as much as i wanted to. that's why this post is so short.