After reading this, I suddenly felt as though there is, in fact, hope for me to do something else with my life. Instead of feeling afraid as I have been, I now feel optimistic that a world of possibilities is opening up before me.
You see, my job, although easy, sometimes fun, recently complete with business cards, and definitely cushy, does not fulfill me. So much of my self-identity is bound up in my job that when I'm wasting time (as I often am at work), I really feel I'm wasting myself. It's not necessarily that I don't even like the kind of work in which I'm trained; the fact is that I am pursuing employment in a dying industry. Newspapers left and right are folding, and magazines are surely next. I don't like sitting at a desk in front of a computer all day, either.
Steve Pavlina got me thinking about my purpose in life. He says to spend some time jotting down potential purposes in life until you hit on one that brings tears to your eyes. He says it takes on average about half an hour.
I spent hours thinking about this. The closest I've come is: My purpose in life is to show love to beings who feel unloved. Now, what does this mean? Work in nursing homes? Animal shelters? Escort services? (Kidding.) None of these line up with what I have below, however...
I decided to brainstorm professions, activities, or potential income streams that I think or know I might like, regardless of ease, availability, location, or extra training or schooling involved:
playing piano (or organ) in churches, department stores, etc.
renting my piano skills out for bands, events, whatever
being a dietitian/nutritionist
owning/managing a restaurant
cooking/preparing food in a restaurant
waiting tables in a restaurant
being a pastry chef
being a personal chef
tutoring for English
...and that's all for now. What I need from you, please: more ideas, positive reinforcement, and constructive criticism. I really appreciate any direction in which you can steer me. Where would I excel? At what would I fail miserably? How do I reconcile my so-called purpose in life with a profession I can enjoy?