12.31.2009

I won't be seeing you, 2009.

Hello. I haven't posted in months. Sorry about all that. I got busy, my life turned upside-down, and I lost motivation. Yet I have been thinking about you, anyone who likes to read regular updates on what I'm up to. So it's back to it.
The last day of 2009 seemed a good day to write a goodbye letter to this year.

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Dear 2009,
As perfect as we were, we both knew all along that it couldn't last. Our relationship started out so beautiful, virginal, and pure that I couldn't fathom anything soiling its immaculate surface. You lured me in and made me fall in love with you. We were lovely together.

When you rewarded me with a new job in June, I was ecstatic and trusted you would bring more goodness my way. I wasn't disappointed. You gave me a promotion, a move, an exciting new chapter in my personal life, a fabulous vacation, trips to see friends and family, a new president, loads of new music, somewhat promising social progress, and a sunrise every day. I am so grateful.

But you also proved difficult. You pelted me with obstacles and setbacks, and I could do nothing but accept. You brought a few sad endings for me. You made me see myself and my flaws in a harsh, unforgiving light. You allowed the world to be turned by fear (still). But I'm not angry with you; it is all necessary for growth, and ultimately I am thankful for these, too.

Two thousand nine, it is time for us to move on, you to the annals of history, I to the year 2010. I guess this is goodbye.

Yours truly,
s